For me, Monday is the start of a new beginning for me. I will be attending a CNA class in hopes of becoming an RN one day. Actually I would love to be a traveling RN. But anyway, ever since my mom passed I have been blaming myself for not making her better in some way; I think she would still be alive today if I had better taken care of her. I know she had cancer and it was terminal but I can't help feeling that way, so I am hoping to gain more knowledge, education, and experience in this field. I'm not sure why I started out in the healthcare feild but I think it was to help my dad become better-fat chance of doing that-because my mother always said I could never help him the way he needed help or something like that, I can never remember exact wording. But anyway, just this last week I have been looking into a creative writing degree or something that would help me to become a book editor, having no financial worries while pursuing that goal would be wonderful and so.....healthcare.
There are so many fields I would like to explore, but I only have one life and time goes by so freaking fast when your not looking. You know, most people say that they have no regrets growing up, but I have a ton. And I really wish I could go back and change who I became as a person. That's horrible to say isn't it? But it's the truth. I keep thinking, if I just did this different or that different then I would be happy. But you are who you are and things happen for a reason, you just have to accept life as it comes.